Today I had to make muffins.
You might question that previous statement–”Molly, did you really have to make muffins?”
The answer is yes. Yes I did. And if you ever make these muffins you’ll understand why they’ve become a household necessity. They’re like oxygen to me and mines.
Most mornings I try to work a little stitch of time for Morrow and me–Orison’s at Kindergarten (for only a couple more weeks–eek!) and the babies are taking their morning nap. Sometimes we read books, sometimes we have a dance party, sometimes we play board games or puzzles. It’s not always easy to do, and there are always other tasks, but I’m really trying to be intentional with my second-born. These days are too short (as proven by my first baby almost being done with Kindergarten!!!)
Anyway, today he really wanted to help me make muffins. Every efficiency-craving bone in my body wanted to refuse him and just get it done quickly by myself. I really felt the Lord’s prodding though…
“Will you let him help?”
When I asked him if he wanted to help me, you’d have thought I’d asked him if he wanted to go to Disney World or something. He was so excited.
I’d measure things out while he stood on the step stool giggling with the excitement and anticipation of getting to dump it in the bowl. It was seriously precious.
We were getting to the end of our project and he said to me, “Mom you’re a heartbeat.”
Then he asked me, “What’s a heartbeat?” (LOVE him!)
I said, “Hang on. Let me wash my hands (which were covered in muffin batter) and then I’ll show you.”
“Are the heartbeats in the closet?”
“No, buddy, they’re in your body.” So I put his little hand on his chest and let him feel the flutter. “Do you feel that?”
“Yeah…” he said, concentrating on the sensation.
I gave it my best shot to explain heartbeats to my two and a half year old, but, not surprisingly, he quickly lost interest.
But I loved making muffins with him today. Here’s a silly (low-quality) picture of me and my little heartbeat:
It’s not always practicable to sacrifice efficiency in a mom’s busy world. Today I really felt the trade-off though: efficiency v. life-sharing. Will Morrow remember making muffins when he’s older? Probably not this particular time. But will Morrow remember that I made time for him, despite a busy day’s schedule? I hope so.
I can be too easily owned by efficiency and tasks around my house. Granted, I think that having an orderly home is important; it’s a value that I have. But…when and how can I flex that? I’m very thankful for God’s gentle reminders today to take time to feel the heartbeats. They’re not going to last forever.
And neither are those muffins…