Sep 22, 2010
“You’re Missing”: Still, Three Years Later
(via Karsten)
My brother-in-law Karsten posted this song on 9/11. I couldn’t help owning it for today, Felicity’s birthday, three years later.
The line that makes me cry today:
Your house is waiting…for you to walk in.
I never saw her steps. What I wouldn’t give to watch her walk into our house–watch her strut around the place without a care about mortgages, utilities, broken stuff. It would just be her home, that safe place she calls hers.
But, I’ll join her at her place someday. And somehow…somehow I won’t regret all the years we spent apart.
Today I do.
Bless you today Molly!
As much as I can, feeling it with you. Blessings.
We’ve never met but my hearts hurts reading this post. Love, hugs, and prayers.
Oh, every time I read about your precious Felicity I start crying. In part because my own son’s birthday is the day before hers (09/21/07, so he just turned three too), and it hurts to think that you’re missing out on all of the stages that I’m enjoying. And it makes me wonder, why did God take your Felicity but give me Ian? I don’t know. And the echoing question hurts. But I do know that He is infinitely good and will gently care for you and comfort you not only through today but also through all the other hard days.
Felicity is blessed to be loved and longed for by her family who have yet to come Home. She is remembered and missed and cherished, which I think is one of the greatest gifts you have given her.
Happy birthday, Felicity. What a wonderful job you do, as always, loving, remembering, and honoring her. What you’re missing having her in your home, Jesus is getting to enjoy having her in His.
It has only been 6 months since I lost my sweet Ava and I miss her so much. I would give anything to watch her walk out of her room again.
Oh girl, I’m crying through this post today. She has been on my heart since I woke up this morning. I understand that feeling of wanting to appreciate the time apart. Someday we will be home with them. Someday. I, like you, want it to be now. I love you and your sweet, Felicity. She still means as much to me today as she did 3 years ago today.
I’m sorry. Thank you for sharing Felicity with us.
Thanks for sharing. I “owned this song” when my mom died and I saw her slippers sitting by the door from the last time she took them off. I miss her every day too, and, like you, wait for the day that I will not regret the time apart.
Thinking of you today Molly, as I often do. I pray you will feel God’s comfort along with the aching pain. I haven’t listened to the song yet, but loved what you wrote! Recently I’ve been pondering how God will make the pain and suffering of the world make sense to us in heaven. I’m glad we have that hope!
Happy Birthday Felicity! I’m one of the people who are spending a lifetime eagerly waiting to meet you!
Thinking of you and praying for you on this day of memories and longings. I know that for me in my grieving, sometimes one of the most frustrating things is that life doesn’t seem to stop long enough to let me do it well (a.k.a. the way I want to.) It keeps plunging forward, as I struggle to put on the brakes. “Wait, a second,” I cry. “I am in the middle of something really important here.” May you have rest in your soul and grace for this full season, in which you do remember and grieve, even though you haven’t much undistracted time. Peace to your mother’s heart.
Me too.
I remember so vividly this day, Molly. Pregnant with my own first daughter (though I didn’t know it at the time) I could not imagine your pain…..
I can’t wait until the years of missing are seen truly….momentary and passing in light of eternity. Right now three years seems like forever, and it hurts so bad.
Peace of Christ be with you, Molly. We have beautiful, glowing light over the trees here tonight. I’m thinking of Felicity and all of you as you remember her.
Happy Birthday, Felicity.
Maybe our sweet Stephen (who would be her “very big” brother) celebrated with her. He went on ahead of us in the late 1960′s. That loss burned for years and years until it finally occurred to me that it would be less lonely if we gave him his name. It turned out to be Stephen, like the Stephen who saw Jesus when the heavens opened. I was only 4 months pregnant when he left us.
But today is Felicity’s day. Bless your sweet heart, Molly, as you miss her.
grieving with you. i wonder, when we stand in glory, reunited with those who went before us, healed, redeemed, rescued, never to fear death again if we will even remember the pain of missing our loved one. anxiously awaiting that day. blessings to you, sweet sister.
Been thinking of you and your Felicity all week…with tears…and prayers for you. I love you, Molly. I look forward to meeting her one day, too.
Hi Molly! I have followed your blog for several months now, anxiously awaiting the birth of the twins with so many others. You have such a beautiful heart and sweet family. I don’t know why I’ve never commented…but I want you to know that I’ve read and wept every word of Felicity’s story. Oh how my heart hurts for you. I love that you will rejoice with her one day, with no memory of the pain! And please know you are covered in prayer today as well. I pray God pulls you so close that you can’t deny he’s completely carrying you.
Congratulations on your two little ones, by the way! They are absolutely precious and oh so beautiful. I love that they seem to look just like the two of you! I am blessed by your blog!
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I’m so sorry, Molly. So very sorry.
Thinking of you and Felicity today…
Oh sweet friend. Heaven is the face of a little girl, yes?
My prayer for you tonight:
Out of these ashes
Beauty will rise
And we will dance among the ruins
We will see it with our own eyes
Out of this darkness
New light will shine
And we”ll know the joy that’s coming in the morning
Anniversaries of hard days are so…hard.
Thinking and praying for you. May God bless you as your pour out your heart to Him.
Heaven feels a bit sweeter knowing our children are there. Knowing they are enjoying and experiencing the full beauty. Knowing that one day they will show us around.
The wait is painful. I appreciate your longing to not regret the years separated.
Happy birthday sweet girl. You are well loved and will never be forgotten. Your life, yet brief by humans measurement, is valuable and precious.
Thank you for sharing her birthday with us.
You have been in my thoughts throughout today. I very vividly remember hearing the news about Felicity as I held my brand new little Will and just crying for you — I didn’t know who you were at the time, but the idea of a mommy losing her new little one just broke my heart, and still does. Your continued love for her is so evident and beautiful.
And someone asked me if I still think of my daughter… if I still miss her! The ache in me, the physical ache for her… I think if I did not have other mothers like you who remember, I would go crazy from the people who expect me to “forget” or “get over it”.
We remember with you. Even though we never knew her, we remember. What a day it will be to finally hold our babies!
Crying for you and praying for you, Molly. I can’t imagine your grief, but know that I am here for you. I pray that the years will change your pain into something more bearable. Love you guys
Happy Birthday, Felicity. Love and prayers for your whole family.
Happy birthday sweet Felicity. I know your pain, your ache, your loss Molly. Many prayers for you and your family.
Blessings,
Amanda
Forever missing Gavin 4/7-5/3/08
Yes, Happy Birthday, sweet little girl. Richest blessings and much grace to you, Molly and family.
I wanted to thank you for sharing your both your heart and practical advice on your blog about how to help a grieving friend. On Monday of this week a good friend delivered her stillborn daughter and your articles have provided me with some perspective on how to better minister to her during this time.
Thank you for allowing the Lord to use this wound in your heart for His glory.
Happy birthday, Felicity, and hugs to your family.
Happy Birthday, sweet Felicity!
I lost Jacob 3.5 months ago. You have inspired me, shown me that life does go on, that I can make it through this. But we will always miss our babies.
Mourning with you today, Molly.
My heart still hurts with you. I hope I get to witness you being reunited with your precious Felicity when we go home.
I am so sorry your mama’s heart is hurting today, and that it has to hurt at all. I’m with you on longing for Heaven on days like this. In just a few weeks my niece will have been one year with Jesus after she was born straight into his arms for some unknown reason last October. Since losing her and losing the closeness our family once had, I’ve been visiting your blog in the hope of learning how to put us back together again. The ache in our hearts is there, and though there is comfort, there is still the longing for this broken world to be made whole so very soon. Come Lord Jesus!
Happy Birthday Felicity. Praying for your family to have peace remembering her today. Can’t wait til the day we get to hug our babies we never heard cry and hear them call us mommy.
[[[BIG HUGS]]] to you & many prayers being sent your way <3
Happy Birthday, Felicity…happy birthday, sweet girl.
Oh Molly. You have no idea how badly I needed to hear that right now. We just passed the 4 yr. Anniverary of my Neices Tragic Death and when God came to get her to sit on Jesus’s Lap for all of eternity. I can barely wait to join her. I know I will be more excited to see my Lord, but that’s hard to believe today. Thanks for listening and being obedient to what the Lord puts in your heart, and sharing it. God uses us to bless others when we are not even aware of His presence! What I am the most grateful for this year, is that I finally quit blaming God for “wrong doing”, and because of that, I had the sweetest Communion with my Lord that I have ever had. He truly sobbed with me this time. I could hear Him. Much love and Blessings!~Teresa
Molly, this is a beautiful post. Thank you for sharing your comfort with us. I needed to hear the reminder that we get to join them. For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives. . . .
Come, Lord Jesus.
oh molly. i am so sorry you are feeling this way. i also look forward to meeting dear sweet felicity someday. i can’t imagine what today must be like for you, but you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Missing your eldest daughter with you.
Oh! I’ve been away from your page for too long! Congratulations on your little babies! They are so precious and beautiful. What a beautiful mother you are and what a wonderful family! Thanks for sharing this song as well! Our oldest is just starting kindergarten as well!
We’ve never met, but gosh, I love you, and I’m grieving with you… and I can’t wait for eternity to get to know you better, and your precious Felicity, too!!
P.S. Our littlest guy shares a birthdate with your twins (though he just barely squeaked into it, with less than a minute to spare, in the Pacific Time Zone!)– and he, too, spent much of his first weeks of life peeing through every outfit I put him into!)
Molly- Grieving with you as you pass these milestones. Thank you for sharing so much on your blog. It’s a help to those of us out here who are facing loss and pain as well. I just lost my first baby two weeks ago. Still feel like I’m stumbling through these days so numb and sad.
I’m looking for books on miscarriage and am wondering if you can recommend any.
Carrie